18 October 1915 – 24 October 1915

Heart intermits. Every three or four minutes. M---- said that I ought to be getting used to it by now! Phew!! Very nervy and pusillanimous. Taking strychnine in strong doses. I hope dear E---- does not catch the 'flu. She swallows quinine with large hopes.

Staying at R----. Had a ghastly journey down, changing trains twice at Clapham Junction and at Croydon, heart intermitting all the time in every position. Poor E---- with me. To-day surprised to find myself still alive.

Better to-day. After much persuasion, I have got E---- to let the flat so that we can get away into the country outside the Zeppelin zone.

Back in London again. Am better, bolstered up with arsenic and strychnine. Too nervously excited to do any work.